I’m Baaaack

It feels like forever since I’ve had a blog. In reality it’s been about a year since I took my leave of absence. But the time has been filled to the brim with changes and transformations, including some major life adjustments. We sold our home, purchased a home, and moved our family to a new area. We dealt with some serious illnesses. (Encore anyone?) We had to make really important decisions- the overwhelming kind (no pressure). Oh the joy of life’s crash courses… In short, I’ve come to this… I’m a writer. I love it. I miss my blog! There was a part of me a year ago that really thought I was a farmer. I’m not. There’s still a part of me that wishes I was, but reality is- I’m not. In almost every event that has transpired over the year, I would imagine how I would translate it into text. I would go over the wordy details in my head, while sitting in the hospital room or before falling asleep. It was my coping mechanism and mental relief (well, that and a lot of prayer). I love to write! …I didn’t make cheese. Never once did I wish I had animals to feed or crops to water. Honestly, I really can’t even fathom the extra responsibility.

There was one morning over the summer (which also feels like forever ago) when I hadn’t even made breakfast yet, and the humidity outside was like 100% (not really… but close) and the temperature was on track to be in the high 90’s. Even with the air-conditioning on, I was hot and I didn’t feel like making breakfast for myself and four kids. It was then that I knew that the last thing I wanted to do was go collect eggs or feed the hypothetical livestock. It was clear to me: I am not a farmer… and I’m turning into my mother.

I remember reading the forward of Homestead Kitchen, by Eve and Eiven Kilcher, written by Jewell, where she was expressing her admiration for the hard work they put into their farming and gardening. She was acknowledging her fondness for self sustainable living and responsible practices for growing and raising food… and admitting that her role lies in supporting those practices as a conscientious consumer. I read her forward thinking to myself, “You’re a Kilcher! What would I give for that kind of opportunity!?!” But here I am… a little further down the road of self-awareness, relating more to the self expression of Jewell rather than the homesteader in Eve and Eiven. Who knew? Probably everyone that knows me. But I had to explore the idea of it.

So, here I am, still a habitual dreamer- but an inspired writer! I am a totally overwhelmed mother of four who still loves to cook and entertain… with a lot to say. I’ve missed this! Some of you have stayed in touch, and a few have asked me to come back. It means a lot. Thank you! I’m happy to be here. 🙂

35 comments

  1. Welcome back. Glad you’ve found what you want to do. Life can be tough with four kids and dealing with illness. Mine are all grown up now but it can still be tough when you’re being pulled in all directions with them and their lives and your elderly mother and husband and… and… and… and….so much more. It’s great to escape to the writing world 😉

    1. Thank you so much <3 We are at different stages in life, but definitely share a bond in our escape (and clearly an appreciation of family). I look forward to catching up on your blog!

      4. I think I like the sound of that, having an adventure and coming home to mama! Although that’s me now… let’s see where I’m at in a few years! Lol.

    1. You are perhaps my biggest fan! (Okay, it’s a 3-way tie. Lol) Thank you. Love you. …And I can’t wait to post your pasta from scratch pics! Hahaha!

  7. So glad you’re back! I’ve missed your musings. They always warm my heart and give me something to ponder.

  9. Just when you give up, I’m ready to buy a cow…! Just kidding…!!!! Welcome back!

  11. Hey! Lovely to see you again. Happy that you are settled, happy that you understand better who you are … leave the farming to the farmers, don’t beat up and just enjoy being the brilliance that you are 🙂

    1. Fiona, you always have the nicest things to say. Thank you 🙂 I do feel peacefully settled in our new home. (And I’m enthusiastic about visiting the local seasonal farmer’s market.) It’s lovely to see you again, can’t wait to catch up on your adventures!

      1. All in good time … I’m just here doing my erratic and discursive thing and it is always a pleasure to see you!

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    Yeah…I’m a little excited? So glad to have you back Sadie, looking forward to reading about your adventures, and especially your recipes ?

  13. Welcome back! Haven’t had much time to read blogs lately, but really glad I caught this one ?

    1. Thank you Johann ? I hope you and Roberta are doing well. I drop in on your adventures when I can, seems you’re keeping those boots muddy! ?

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